Head in the game

I need to get my head in the game.  Seriously.  This is rediculous. 

Love,

Mango Kitty

crossroads

Have I mentioned I'm a sugar addict?  Cuz I'm a sugar addict.  And it's annoying that I can't simply let that sweet granulated white stuff BE, and not shove it in my mouth, CONSTANTLY.   I need to concentrate on good habits, get to get to the gym, eat right, sleep a normal amount of time instead of the gazillion hours of sleep I get a night now.  It's so easy to say I'm going to do all of these things, It's much harder to implement them.  It's too easy to eat junk and stay home from the gym. 

Dear Me, Stop being so freaking LAZY!

Love,
Mango Kitty

P.R.'s

^tired and sweaty after today's workout!^

The gym went really well today,  I got a bunch of personal records, including breaking a 200lbs leg press!  Yeah buddy!

Unfortunately the scale is still not moving, even though I can tell cloths are starting to fit me better and I feel much more in control of my body it's discouraging to see the scale remain stagnant.   I know that how I feel is much more important than the scale, But I just can't get over it.  I'm so tired of being obese, of being ashamed of my size and weight, of living a plus sized life.  With time and consistent effort I'll get there.  I'll be strong, healthy, and proud of my body.  In the meanwhile I'll have to remind myself how far I have come...

 These pants used to be tight, now they literally fall off without a belt! Keep the faith!

Love,

Mango Kitty

September Check in

And then we find ourselves in September.  What?!?  When did that happen???  I'm about this impressed.

Anyhoo, It's the first of September today, that means check in, here are my stats:

Weight: 116.3kg (from 117)

Neck: 36cm (from 36m)

Upper arm: 44cm
Chest: 106cm (from 106cm)
Waist: 101cm (from 106cm)
Hips: 134cm (from 135cm)
Thigh: 77cm (from 78cm)

Body Fat%: 53.6% (from 55.9%) (WOOHOO!)

BMI: 41.21 (from 41.45)

So while it's going slowly, it IS going!  That's the most important thing, that the numbers keep moving down.  I am re-vamping my eating this month and hope to see an acceleration in loss, while continuing to regularly go to the gym.  Here are some progress pics.

 How is it even possible to have as much hips as I do?  Madness...  Oh well, I'd rather have big hips because it means I'm going to have an hourglass figure when I'm at a healthy weight, but right now it looks like I've got pillows hidden under my freakin pants. 

I'm not going to the gym today, because I had a stomach bug yesterday and puked like craaaazy.  I feel much better today but I don't want to risk it.  So it's a rest day for me.  Horrah horray :/

Time to curl up on the couch and watch old UFC with my Viking.

Love,

Mango Kitty

LCHF

I need a serious diet make over.  I'm going with LCHF, I've done it before and lost 10kg, many cm's, body fat% and felt great.  Then I started slacking and it slid out of control. But I've decided to get back into it.  And I know it will work.  Plus I have a LCHF buddy to help me!  I'm going to her place on Friday so we can go threw the details of our awesomeness.

LCHF is quite simple, you cut out white stuff, sugar, flower, potatoes, rice, and processed grains.  You eat lots of vegetables and protein, and drink lots of water.  You avoid processed "low fat" foods, as they have added sugar in them, and you eat "real" butter, cream, oils, and nuts.  Fruit is candy, frozen raspberries and whipped cream is ice cream, and unsalted nuts are potato chips.

The gym is going good,  I'm slowly getting over my insecurity there and am growing more confident in my workouts.  Next week I hope to start swimming as well as lifting and walking.

I'm really looking forward to being in the best shape of my life!  Check in is Sunday, It won't be pretty, but it'll be a needed kick in the ass! Go Go Miss Mango!

Love,
Mango Kitty

Trainer

So today was the first gym day in like, 2 weeks.  (usch.)  But it was a special gym day because I met with a trainer!  She built me a plan combining cardio and weight lifting to do three times a week, supplemented with swimming twice a week.  I'm super motivated now, she was great, really encouraging and upbeat (but not annoyingly so) and in two months she's going to build me a new plan so I don't get stagnant.

I still don't have food under control, but I'm working on it.  It's not going to get better until I MAKE it get better.  Screw binge eating/comfort eating/stress eating.  How does it help me?  Answer:  It DOES NOT.  So why do it?  Habit/laziness/self sabotage.  For a while there I said to myself, "I can eat what I want right now because I'm quitting smoking"  Which would have been fine, except that I didn't succeed at quiting smoking.  So I've eaten crap, inhaled poison, and not gone to the gym.  Way to go Mango, way to go.

I weighed myself today, the damage is bad.  Really bad.  So bad that I'm not ready to post it here.  I will post my monthly check in on September 1st though, regardless of what the scale says, because that's my promise to myself and I'll be damned if I don't follow threw with this.  But for the next week and a half it's lots of water, healthy eating, and going to the gym, and we'll see if I can neutralize this weight gain.

Remember when I said I was back on track?  Yeah... that... I would say that I mean it this time, but what weight does that statement hold now?  Only one thing to do.  FUCKING DO IT.

BRING ON HEALTH MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!!!

Love,
Mango Kitty

Brain Freeze

Miss Mango has been eating too much ice cream....





Seriously, It's like I'm addicted or something.  Sweet sweet creamy ice creamy goodness... No, NOT GOODNESS!  EVILNESS! ::sigh:: who am I kidding.  I love the stuff.

Now that summer vacation is over and I'm more busy I'm having trouble motivating myself to eat healthy and work out.  We live so close to the store that I can just walk down and buy whatever I'm craving.  (Which is unfortunately almost always something unhealthy)  And by the time I remember to go to the gym, I'm already in my pj's and ready for bed.  I be needing a serious kick in the shorts.  Hopefully I'll get it on Wednesday!

I've scheduled a time with a trainer at the gym! I'm hoping she will build me a challenging yet realistic weight lifting program that will kick my butt back in gear, which I will complement with swimming once the pool opens up again on August 25th.

I've been gaining weight, because I have been eating crap and not exercising.  No excuses, that's the way it is.  But it isn't ok.  I need to get healthy.  I NEED TO GET HEALTHY!  And I'm the only one who can take me there.  So that's that.  Decided.  I'm officially back on track.  Yay me!
Hopefully there's time to save this month from serious weight gain at Septembers check in.  GO GO MISS MANGO!!!

Love,
Mango Kitty